I feel like I’m losing my mind.

Between the pain and lump (or maybe I’m feeling things that don’t exist in order to cause trouble and gain attention), my weird stomach feelings, my headaches, and the dizzy spells, I don’t know what’s happening to me. It feels like every time I stand up, I get dizzy and now it happens sometimes when I’m sitting down too. I don’t know if I really want to be sick or if it’s my brain causing all of this. I just feel like I’m straight up losing it

Finally accepting that he might not be using me. It’s been two years and he’s only started saying this a few months ago. He knows he can get what he wants without the sweet talk so he’s got to be in it for more. I’m just trying to stay back because I can’t get too attached. He’s not mine to have

Finally accepting that he might not be using me. It’s been two years and he’s only started saying this a few months ago. He knows he can get what he wants without the sweet talk so he’s got to be in it for more. I’m just trying to stay back because I can’t get too attached. He’s not mine to have

Feeling guilty

Not because I ended it. Maybe a little because he’s upset and even though I tried to minimize the damage, I’m still going to end up doing what Henry did to me and breaking his heart. Mostly because I’m finally really happy and I can’t post it anywhere out of fear that he will feel worse. I’m guilty because I’m happy without him.

Leanne is telling me that I can spill it all to her and she thinks I’m stupid. Like no shit I know you have an agenda and I know that you aren’t doing this because you’re a “good and caring” person. You want to find out what went wrong and why so that you can either a. Swoop in and have him back (which have fun cause I don’t want him) or b. talk badly about me